[sebbie]

Let me recount where we are. Bill went surfing on his dorm room computer, and first found Sebbie’s “understanding male sexuality” paper. That led him directly to the “others” paper but Bill was particularly taken by the section of that paper called “Spending the Night in a Cup”. Bill started reading that, and it took him to places where as a high school student he had never been in his thinking before. Remember, Bill was never an athlete in high school, let alone a star athlete. He had never even thought of the whole subject of how certain athletic clothing items could perhaps lead to sexual arousal. He had just never made that connection.

Sebbie’s words started him thinking about two things, first that an athletic supporter or “jock strap” could, on its own, result in sexual arousal. Then there was the subject of the hard protective cup worn for some sports like baseball, and how that might fit and feel next to the penis. Then there was the topic of how compression shorts fit and feel as undergarments for athletic wear. All of this to Bill seemed new and different, mainly because such thoughts had never occurred to him before.

Sebbie’s paper suddenly put Bill in a whole new mindset. Sebbie described
some things in the paper that at first glance seemed more than a little bit weird, but at some level, still interesting too. As Bill read on, he could feel a wet spot developing on his loose-fitting boxer underwear right at the tip of his penis. That must be precum, which is supposed to happen when an initial sexual encounter takes place with a partner. Certainly nothing at all like this was ever mentioned in his high-school sex-education class for sure.

Bill thought it odd that this was happening as he was reading about a guy going to bed and trying to sleep wearing a jock strap, a hard cup and a pair of compression shorts, but he kept reading on about what Sebbie was doing and feeling anyway. This felt weird to Bill, particularly the wet precum next to his own penis part, but strangely enough, he was not put off enough to stop reading. He quickly became oddly curious, or at least he thought the sensations were odd, maybe even abnormal. But Bill kept reading, visualizing in his own mind what Sebbie was doing and trying to understand exactly what Sebbie was feeling and experiencing at each stage in his arousal going on under the covers and insidethe cup and strap.

Sebbie’s paper certainly did not meet the traditional definition of pornographic material. There were no photos or videos of guys ejaculating or women groaning as penis enters vagina. Just words. Bill had already seen several porno sites, and this was not that at all.

Practically every guy it seems can get aroused just thinking about another guy getting into a situation where he is being aroused. Practically every “primarily if not “exclusively” straight guy believes that this must be some sort of hidden “gay streak” that must be hidden from view insomuch as possible if he is to have a “normal” heterosexual relationship. So, practically every straight guy would be very embarrassed to uncover that deep down there is stuff out there that can lead to arousal that doesn’t involve a female partner.

Pretty weird, huh? Sebbie writes words on a paper that describes sensations he experiences spending the night in a cup. Obviously, as part of writing this, Sebbie gets very turned on, and that is apparent. Bill reads this and can relate at least to the point of understanding the fun of jerking off under the covers, even though the jockstrap-and-cup stuff at first seems weird at minimum. Is Sebbie really a gay guy who is so in the closet he can find his sexual pleasure only in himself? That certainly is a question to be pondered too, but if that is the case Sebbie has certainly taken self-pleasuring to an entirely new and different level.

Bill finishes the paper just before it is time to go to bed, and as he crawls into his little twin bed he is still thinking about all of this. What does it all mean for goodness sakes?

………To be continued