I won't question your sexual orientation, it's yours to identify and find peace with. I suggest you are a very sensual person who enjoys physical stimulation and that you enjoy being you.
I suspect that you may be playing alone and recomend that you find another or others of the same or other sex to play with you. As children we were all tickled until we collapsed in giggling heaps, then we learned that when we tickled ourselves it didn't work. If you allow another person to caress and play with your body you will find it sensational, amazing!
I discovered my gay side when I allowed someone to put suncream on my back on a beach in Brittany, France and I've wanted more ever since but I'm still me!
Someone has to be the worst swimmer in a team same as someone has to come last in a race. If the person in last place in a marathon were to drop out eventually there'd be no marathon. Improve your worst swimmer and the team will win trophies.
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