[sebbie]

I guess, in theory at least, straight males are supposed to flock to watch what is going on behind door number 1, and would be comfortable if there were other males who were there with them watching and enjoying the same thing. At least that is what everyone is “taught” to believe. I suppose the same case could be made that the audience in front of door number 1 could include females who like women aka lesbians. Again, that is how we are all “supposed” to understand how human sexuality works in theory and practice. Still, I wonder if this is that simple.

Door number 2 poses some even more interesting questions. Given what I am hearing in the news media, I am becoming less and less convinced that most women have an interest in seeing a guy coping with a situation whereby he is gradually getting more and more erect, or, if they do have any interest in such, they would expect this to occur when the woman is alone with a man not in a situation as I described in the previous chapter. Besides, this is getting into some tricky stuff, as in the seeming “anger” many women seem to have at the mere THOUGHT of a guy putting on a swim brief, erection happening or not.

As I think about this it becomes more and more confusing to me. Would the “audience” for the guy at the second door consist entirely of guys who are openly gay, or is their more going on here than that? It is my view that the guys hanging out around door 2 might very well consist of far more than those who consider themselves to be gay. That is the part that gets really complicated to think about, because some guys might really want to watch the guy struggle getting into his swim brief but are worried that if they watch, they will quickly get labeled as gay. This gets into the really complicated issue of who is gay and who is not. Does a male’s interest in seeing this guy struggle to get into his skimpy swim brief somehow “prove” that the observing male is gay or not?

And what of the guy attempting to get into the swim brief? Is this a turn-on in part because he thinks that what is happening to him as he struggles will attract straight women, or is he primarily interested in attracting males who are sexually interested in other males?

And what of door number 3. Any person in the audience, male or female, could go into door number 3 and do his or her own “show with the idea of getting aroused and attracting men or women who find the show to be sexually exciting. Is this more of a turn-on than merely watching the individuals behind doors 1 and 2?

And, what of Dylan and Josh in all of this? Would they likely be found standing in front of door 1, door 2, or would one or both of them be thinking about how much fun it would be to be doing their own show at door 3. And, if 3 is the choice what would be the sex and sexual orientation of the expected audience.

Now Dylan has already done some of this in front of Josh in the privacy of the college dorm room. As a consequence, Dylan and Josh remain good friends and roommates and the entire world did not stop spinning on its axis. I remain convinced that if I could find the answers to all of these questions, I would have a far better understanding of how sexual orientation determination really works, answers to some questions that the sex researchers have never been able to answer either.

But then, I am still struggling with trying to answer the question of whether or not Josh’s willingness to simply watch Dylan struggle with his own arousal and Dylan’s seeming comfort in doing it openly in front of his roommate Josh says anything about either Josh or Dylan’s ultimate sexual orientation. Sexual orientation is actually on a sliding scale that has many more than only five or six categories, and that is part of what makes questions like these so interesting to analyze.

To be continued…